Yesterday I went to my surgeons office for the final sign off on my back operation. I've really grown to like and appreciate  this man. We always open with light conversation talking about anything but the medical issues at hand. Sometimes I slip in the gospel, sometimes I don't.

       He is a personable man with great communicative skills and a really great bedside manner. I have  always have lots of question, daily at first for a couple of months, three or four times a week as I was rehabbing and then every time I show up for a checkup after our initial banter. He has seen me in some extremely  depressing times, always there to reassure, often to just listen as  I cried. He even answered me while he was on vacation. I'm going to miss him.

       When we looked at the final CAT scan going through it frame by frame, he explained in detail every one. The bones lined up perfectly, fused completely as if they had always been that way. He also showed me an old injury where my spine had fused and healed itself over time. This must have been from my motorcycle accident over forty years ago. I was truly amazed at His skills and the proof that God is in control.

        I had an MRI done seventeen years ago as I experienced crippling back pain before going to Hungary for my first missions trip. My spine was injected with an epidural to relieve pain and pressure. This injury was never discussed. God is in control. How else can we explain the forty year old injury restored and healed that no other doctor ever knew about?

       As I began to drive home I began to praise the Lord for His healing grace, for the evidence of His love for me. I had just had a miracle confirmed; in fact two were manifest. I had prayed for healing. I had pleaded for healing. I had questioned healing. God showed me two healings decades apart yet so evidential. Prayers of the saints and myself were answered. He provided more

       Many look to the spectacular, the sign, the wonder...well, there all here. Miracles happen spectacularly every day. God gives us signs every day...and we miss His wonder. God uses His creation to display His miracles every day. He also uses His creation to perform those miracles. He used my doctor to perform a miracle as I think He does daily, hourly, minute by minute around the world; nothing spectacular only if you aren't able to see.  He performs miracles that we never even know about that are not spectacular also; grace. These are all physical miracle that we judge God by, that we judge grace by.

       Some of you know the deep isolation, the deep fear of thinking God wasn't hearing me, even listening to me in that hospital though I cried out for answers. Truth is I have felt that way often. Far from God, knowing the truth yet listening to the accuser; condemnation and conviction can be tricky in the middle of fear. Truth is, the Father was calling me closer, into a closer relationship with Him; Jesus is full of truth and grace. The heart is both a physical and spiritual reality according to God's word. One is easily understood. One takes the Holy Spirit The spiritual miracle is having the eyes of our hearts opened to see the truth of grace that heals in ways we see and may never see...until we see Him.